When I began researching my upcoming novel Acting Out, I spent hours upon hours doing research about the “Gay for Pay,” porn industry. I forced myself to watch a lot of hot guys getting it on. But…that’s a whole other story.
Sorry! I digress. Now where was I? Oh yeah. But – the more websites I stumbled upon, the more intrigued I became. I’ve never been a porn watcher, not because I’m too much of a prude, but simply because I never really got into it. But…with that said, I perused over two dozen sites, many “military type” sites and I watched snippets of the free videos available to “looky loo’s” like me and to be blatantly honest, it was pretty apparent to this novice that only a few held true to the myth of “straight” guys having sex with other “straight” guys.
After narrowing it down to a few porn sites, because they seemed legitimate and because the guys did pre and post video interviews, I bought trial memberships and settled in for a binge watch. What I saw amazed the hell out of me. They were actually real “straight” guys having gay sex with other “straight” guys. The thing that was so blatantly obvious was that these showed no emotion what so ever. They were going through the motions, doing any and everything, but there was no real lust or affection between them. No noticeable connection between them at all. And…that got the old wheels a turning.
So I started previewing the many videos each of these sites had to offer, but more importantly, I listened intently to the interviews where the guys talked about themselves and why they did what they did. I was amazed at the camaraderie between the men, all supporting one another and at the same time teasing one another mercifully. With each interview I learned more and more about what made these men tick. Much to my surprise, many of them were married with small children and many had girlfriends. It was clear that they were doing what they had to do to put food on the table.
After gravitating to a couple of guys in particular, I watched every video for each of them. Sometimes together, sometimes with other guys, but I instantly like these two men and were drawn to them and their story. Or…at least what I could piece together from watching their interviews and putting together all the little tidbits they dropped during each interview. Alone they were just tidbits, but linked together painted a pretty clear picture. They seemed open and honest and genuinely humble. These are the two men who inspired my main characters, Elijah Preston and Hamish Turner.
In my quests to get this story as accurate as possible, I decided to have Eli, who is down on his luck and just entering the world of “gay for pay” porn quiz Hamish, one of the “experienced” guys on why he does what he does.